This brave little soul just decided to bloom today. It is 73 º outside, so it has been fooled. It is supposed to be nearly 80 tomorrow, and then a huge snowstorm on Wednesday. Ah, life in Colorado.
An old blogger contacted me today and it was just so good to feel connected to the blog again. It is really silly to not post anything anymore. I get discouraged when people don’t read, but usually someone reads my posts, and if I posted more, I might get new readers, you never know.
I am going back to work in 2 weeks. I am more grateful than words can say.
I need money, I am not good at living within my means, and having my granddaughter move in has just blown up my budget – to put it mildly. I am very grateful that my 20 year + employer has asked me to come back again. For the 3rd time. It is a permanent part time position and I am so excited about it.
I need to be engaged in the world. I need to have a place to go and people to see. I have volunteered for many things at church, but it just isn’t the same as being gainfully employed.
The most amazing things have happened in the last 8 months. I have grown tired of knitting!! Of all the things to happen, this surprises me the most! I cannot watch TV for more than a few minutes because I find the current political environment so infuriating, frustrating, and terrifying.
My sober daughter is drinking again, and it is my worst nightmare. Just horrifying. Her 19 year old daughter is living with me. She has some pretty dreadful PTSD and depression. She feels like a full time job, but I am so very grateful I have the space and the means to take her in. She was completely out of places to go. I think she is getting much better with the stability and calmness of my home.
Can I just tell you that daughter decided about a year ago that she really could smoke pot and still be sober. That lasted a couple of months before she was drinking again. After over 9 years of sobriety. And she is back where she was years ago. She is a bad drunk and I am so scared for her. I *should* go to Alanon and take my granddaughter with me.
It seems that at least in Colorado newer people are smoking pot and considering themselves sober. I guess because pot is legal. But sober is sober, and smoking pot is not sober.
So that is it in a little nutshell. I hope to hear from one or two or more of you.