Little Geranium seedlings, grown from seeds from the geranium I grew from seeds 2 years ago. Oh, it is fun to watch these grow.
I am now four months into retirement. It is far more challenging than I had anticipated. Some days are awesome (like today) and some are pretty horrid.
There are things I have realized about myself that I really didn’t know before. I think I am just hard wired to have good days and bad. Regardless of what’s going on. I don’t always feel great. But I am always trying to find a way to. Gratitude is my No. 1 tool.
I need at least a scintilla of structure. Mass daily keeps me busy in the morning, but some mornings upon arrival home, I feel incredibly disheartened. Because I need something to do. Something concrete, with a beginning and an end (definitely NOT housework, because I have NOT developed a taste for it). I sewed a blouse over the weekend. It was good to be busy, but it is my idea of a colossal waste of money because patterns and fabric are not cheap. For about $50 and two days of labor, I have a blouse that is primitive at best. It is comfortable so I may actually wear it around the house but believe me when I tell you that $50 is not a reasonable price for a “house blouse.” Knitting is also relatively expensive, but I do really enjoy it and most of the time I really like the finished product.
Today I am having lunch with my old boss – THAT boss from my 17 months in the job “downtown” where I mostly lost my mind. I do really like her even though she was undoubtedly the worst boss I ever had. She was new to management and frequently tells me I taught her a lot. The price I paid for that was very high, but those years are now over, and I can’t wait to see her at lunch today.
My AA life is an entirely different story. I don’t have enough time or energy to write about it this morning. But I do need to do so soon. And hope to God no one from my home group still reads this.
Love you all… thanks so much for reading and commenting.