I took my last (please God) drink of alcohol. I will celebrate my sobriety date tomorrow, because it is the celebration of my sobriety, and I celebrate the day I got sober.
Tonight is just like that night 31 years ago. A hot summer night in Denver. We piled in the car and drove to the library. I was driving up Wadsworth Blvd. wondering why I would be driving drunk with my husband and three kids in the car. And for the first time, it occurred to me that I would be driving drunk because I hadn’t been sober in years. There was probably never a time between 1979 and 1984 that my BAC wouldn’t have gotten me arrested – morning, noon, or night.
I had a micro-vision of what a low-life I was. And for some reason, it didn’t go away within a micro-second.
The next morning I picked up the phone book and looked up AA. And the rest, as they say, is history.
Today I spoke with my best friend who was the voice on the other end of the line when I asked for help. It was the only 12 step call she ever did. I have no doubt of divine intervention, because she was exactly who I needed to talk with that day. And she was exactly who I needed as a best friend forever. She now lives in England, and she long ago started to drink again, but she is still my bestie.
I thanked her for the hour she gave me on the phone that hot morning in July 1984. It seems so trivial now. An hour on the phone, yawn. But I had been so isolated for years that the only person I had to talk with on the phone was a paid professional who sent me a bill at the end of each month. Detailing the phone calls. Drunken phone calls.
I could not believe this woman would spend an hour on the phone with me. She understood me like no one else ever had. She talked about drinking like me! She talked about doing the same kind of insane things I did. She was just like me! It was a moment that has never left me. That aloneness I had always felt left me that day.
I am never alone because I belong in the fellowship of Alcoholics Anonymous. There I found a whole fellowship of people like me.
God has been so very good to me.
Thank you to each and every one of you too!