Yesterday I found it so enjoyable to blog I thought I would try it again today. I really loved blogging. I really like going back and reading what I have written through the past several years. My old blog will be 10 years old this September. I really need to delete it because I overshared a LOT on it. Way too much info. I have gone through this blog from time to time and deleted and hidden posts. I feel OK about it. I did think of starting a brand new blog, not about AA or God or anything intensely personal, and “monetizing” it. I like writing, I think I do it half-decently, and it would be nice to have a dollar or two rolling in. But I can’t imagine what I could like writing about frequently that is not intensely personal.
At work, the big event I have been working towards for nearly 2 years has come and gone. The pace has slowed to a relative crawl. I am entirely unaccustomed to having time to do things properly and with thought! It is so weird. But in a good way. I looked around my little office the other day, which is now clean, and thought back and realized this is the first time since January 2012 that I have had a moment to spare. I have several things I need to write and projects to start and meetings to get back on course, but I have time to do this! Amazing. I think I may be on the other side of that hill that has felt so impossible for the last few years.
In my personal life, there are changes in the air. I don’t want to get specific about this yet, but my whole future may be entirely different than what I have imagined. That sounds like I have fallen in love and am getting married – that is not at all what is happening. But I may be retiring to a different state. Sorry to be so mysterious, but there are other people involved and they are not quite public about what’s going on – yet.
It is however another reminder of how planning and worrying has always worked out in my life. God always seems to have another plan. I cannot map it out, because I am not the one who is in charge. Much as I like to pretend I run my own life, it just simply is not the case.
I am so grateful for that!