It takes a while to realize this, or at least it has for me, being post-menopausal is really kind of great.
I don’t have to worry about menstruating a quarter of my life away, and all the attendant nonsense with that. I don’t have PMS, so I can trust what I think and feel from one minute to the next.
Menopause is over. And as far as our culture goes, so am I.
No one talks about the joy of being post-menopausal. I never expected this. I don’t need to worry about eating soy or taking pregnant mare’s urine. I no longer have the hot flashes that were an absolute terror to me. It wasn’t just being hot, it was feeling like I was going to die from heat and not being able to breathe. And to sit in meetings and try to act like that was not happening. Oh, hell no, I am so glad that is O.V.E.R.
I finally let my hair go natural and I am thrilled to see the grey streaks in it. I think they are pretty. My hair is sort of a “sugar and nutmeg” color. (yes, I did make that up.) I cut it short, just like old women do. It looks pretty and fresh, and I am thrilled with it.
I don’t lie about my age, never have. I am 62. I like being 62. I would like it better if I were retired though I think. I like that I am as good as I am going to get. Yes, you may call that being on the decline, but I am good with that. I’ve had a big life.
I am grateful to be as healthy as I am. Grateful because I think in life this is largely a crap shoot. I could of course try to take credit for that by saying I eat well and exercise, but so do lots of people. I have some arthritis, that is life. My eyesight and hearing are not what they were. Again, that is life.
I am happy to be the way I am. I have a belly, I have some wrinkles, I have some veins on my legs. I am not so freaked out about the way I look. I am not so invested in clothing or even shoes as I was just a few years ago. I am not trying to look like I am in the market for a man, because I am not. I frequently go without make-up. What fun!
Why don’t women talk about what a great time this is?
I think I shall do that for a while.
And thank God he let me live this long.