My goals for 2013 were mixed, some were met, some were not. But what transpired was beyond my wildest dreams.
The first 4 months of the year were terrifying. I had never been so depressed. I didn’t have adequate health care. My psychiatrist left and no one knew me when I needed someone who knew me. I was a mess, and had to deal with being treated like a “patient,” since I was devoid of wit, charm, and was suffering from cognitive deficits from depression. I later reviewed my record, and as I thought, they wrote terrible things about me. It was horrifying.
As it was, it turned out as it should have. I suffered. I turned to God like never before. There was no where else to turn. I meditated. My whole world view changed.
I found a new psychiatrist who listened to me. He vowed his support of me. That meant everything to me. And now I am about to lose him 😦
And in April, just when I decided to give up and retire, I was offered a chance to go back to the hospital I worked for so long. It was like a miracle. Maybe it was a miracle. In July I was back as the occupant in the office where I first interviewed 19+ years ago – desperate for a job as an Administrative Assistant. Now I am the Director in the same department.
I have a new grandson. He is beautiful. They will be moving to Montana, but I can go visit.
I need to do some different things in 2014. I will sit down and write that all down tomorrow. I am excited for a new year.
But after what I lived through last year, I am pretty sure that no matter what happens, I will be OK. God is always right here.