I finally got to confession yesterday morning on my way to work. Thank God for a church with confessions starting at 7:05 a.m. every day! The priest was so nice to me! We all have different personalities, he said, maybe mine is a bit more “passionate.” My penance? Write a gratitude list with my evening prayer every night. Look at where I fell short and ask God for his help. (Sounds a lot like a 10th step to me.) Awesome. I used to do a written 10th step every day, and it certainly could not hurt me to do that again. I started last night.
And now I must get ready for my day. I will pray again for a calm day. Yesterday was not calm. It was a bit of a nightmare. I am wondering if my honeymoon is over. This job is HARD. I knew it would be, but I don’t think I anticipated how I would FEEL when I couldn’t get my job done in spite of working an average of 10 hours a day, and how it would FEEL to have people literally chasing me down in the hallways. I will talk with the #1 offender today.
I got out my retirement chart yesterday and looked at it. Is it really worth it to spend these years of my life working towards retirement – increasing my retirement income by 2.5% per year. These are years of my life. I won’t make a decision based on a month’s experience. But I will not spend the days of my life being miserable in a chase for a few more bucks. If I must be dirt poor, then I must be dirt poor.
I don’t want to write the real words, so I will just say I am a bit of a cump lie ence off-a-ser. I had someone chase me down the hall yesterday with something she “found” (by digging through files that were none of her freaking business) that was a vie-o-lay-shun. Creating weeks of paperwork for me. WHY can’t people work together? Could someone come to me and say “there is a bunch of stuff that you probably should take a look at.” Instead of bringing me bunches and creating vie-o-lay-shuns. OK – maybe if I just think of them being spelled like an illiterate person would spell them, it will make them seem better? Yep.
That and knowing that God is at my side always.