I am heading out of here for my last day at that place. I had no idea the last week would be a melt-down of sorts for me. The person hired to replace me “worked” on writing a letter to a friend all day yesterday. I had given her a task to do – which needed to be done – and every time I checked on her, she was writing a letter, then quickly minimizing that and showing me she was working! At the end of the day, she had left without saying anything, and the work was undone.
I told my boss that my first inclination was to stay until 6 p.m. to get it closer to done, but decided that would only cause resentment on my part, so I didn’t. She said “I don’t give a f****” “I won’t be here all next week.” Awesome. No one is taking ownership for something that needs to get done. And I am not picking it up. They can all figure it out. But it causes distress in me because I don’t want to walk out of there at the end of today with a mess. I have worked for two months to get all of my files in great shape so that someone could come in and pick right up. Yesterday, the new gal had written over the data file she will need. It is just gone.
Not my problem. Really, it is not my style to say that, but honestly, I have to do that in this case.
When I got home, it was 95 degrees outside, and 90 degrees inside my house. I guess there is no getting around the fact that I need to use my AC this summer. It took till this morning to get it down to a chilly 80 degrees. The house is now sealed up like a tomb, and the central air is blasting. Blasting dollar bills. I can see them coming out of the vents!
I hope to God I can get that peace in my heart back after I leave there. I am on vacation all next week.
AND I got the wonderful Dave Ramsey’s Financial Peace University materials yesterday. I will drive to work today, listening to a CD. And spend the weekend figuring out what I need to do. AWESOME. Thank God for his angels. Thank you Jeanne.
Could you please say a prayer for me? I am still terrified I am going to go off at work. I nearly did it yesterday. But I didn’t. And God’s grace is a powerful powerful force.