I gave up buying clothes for Lent. It was a very powerful penance as I realized how pathological my “need” for clothing is. When the thought to buy new clothes popped into my head, it was never “I want a new pair of shoes, pants, dress, etc.” No, it was always “I NEED….” I realized how ridiculous that was. My abstinence lasted until Monday night this week.
I looked at my bare legs at work on Monday and thought – it is time to put this in the past. I can wear bare legs at home, or for casual occasions, but not for work. Not anymore. Sad, because I always thought my legs were my best feature. But, over the last couple of years, my age has appeared on my legs. That’s OK. They were good for a long dang time.
I thought “I NEED a new maxi dress.” So I bought one. J. Jill Pima Stretch Cotton A-Line Dress. Black. Very basic. And pretty. And of course I had to purchase a pretty scarf. With a pretty scarf and a little cardigan it looks really nice. I think. I wore it yesterday, and since I was at a different place, I am wearing it again today! (Don’t tell anyone!)
This is the extent of what I have to write about this morning. I went back through my blog over the last few days and I am dumbfounded at reading the daily account of a person who is near death from depression. That may sound like hyperbole, but I can assure you, it is not.
Thank God it is today. And I have a new dress to wear.