When the snow began on Monday I took this photo outside my office. Then it kept snowing and I believe we got 8 to 10 inches of the stuff. Please, may it melt today. May I be able to open a window and listen to birds singing sometime before next winter. Please.
I was working off site yesterday, eating lunch with a colleague, when I got an e-mail from my boss. It was my frigging performance evaluation. Seriously. By e-mail. Of course, I looked at it and then tried to maintain my composure with my colleague… who I had just been defending my boss to. I knew she was going to do this, but still was shocked and hurt when she did it. She wrote a basically glowing report of how wonderful I am, and then threw a little caveat into each section, sometimes having to use the same caveat in different sections. In other words, she knew what the score needed to be, and she worked backwards from there. All that to keep me from getting a 1% raise. I spend more than that on my cable bill. Whatever. I cried last night, I cried this morning. Now I have to go off to yet another off site meeting and try to act like I am a confident, smart, helpful person after realizing that all of these things helped me not one whit during the most horrendous year of my life.
At this point, I can’t imagine why anyone else would want to hire me, so I am not exactly looking forward to good news later today. But I am praying for it.
If you could say a prayer, I would be so appreciative.