I think this might be the worst depressive episode I have ever faced. Not clear how I am going to get through it. I am reaching out to my friends and family. Don’t know what else to do. I broke down at work yesterday and cried for 2 hours. You know, I can’t continue to do this. My boss sat with me in her office for an hour. She was crying! That’s how pitiful I am.
I will continue to put one foot in front of the other and pray constantly. I don’t know where God’s will will take me, but I am heading there.
You may believe in a God who only showers those he loves with sunshine, rainbows, and puppy dogs. That is a God I am unfamiliar with – except as he is extolled in cute powerpoint slides on facebook (click “like” in four seconds if you love Jesus, keep scrolling if you love Satan).
I would ask for your prayers. And I would ask that you keep to yourself condescending comments about how you “overcame” depression by working the steps. Tell it to Bill Wilson.