This atmosphere is toxic. I spent a fair bit of time this morning looking at websites, not blogs, and getting angry. Not a good idea. Part of me says “Yeah! They are WRONG! I need to speak up! I need to…… ” What I need to do is detach a bit and back the hell off. I think.
Maybe I need to switch off the television set until Wednesday, November 7. I got to see my non-alcoholic daughter yesterday for an unexpected and unplanned lunch and she suggested “why don’t you watch movies?” Well, why don’t I? And as I am writing this, it occurs to me that I am paying $16. a month to Audible.com for a book a month to listen to (while I am riding the bus and knitting). But I could cancel that and get HBO instead! I have already stopped having the TV playing in the morning while I am blogging and getting ready for work. I am just happier in the silence. But I need to plant myself for an hour or so every night and just sit and knit. And it is pretty boring to stare at a wall while doing so.
Perhaps that “nun on the bus” was my bottom, so to speak, so that I can switch off and live more happily. For some reason, I am reminded of Timothy Leary’s “Turn on, tune in, drop out” of the crazy 60s. Maybe I would like to do the opposite.
OK, another stream-of-consciousness post. I have come to love this blog because I am not proselytizing any organization and I do not feel limited to being “happy joyous and free” 24/7.
If you were of this world, the world would love its own; but because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you. — John 15:19