This is a photograph of the note my boss left on my desk today. I don’t even know how to respond to that. Except that I have been crying on and off since 3:30 p.m. In another place and time, I may have found it so insane that it is laughable. But in this place and time full of rejection and hurt and lack of perspective, I can’t laugh.
I am absolutely done in. I have had it.
By the grace of God, my phone has been ringing all night long. I have talked to an old friend or two. I have talked with an old co-worker (from a place where life had a bit of dignity). I talked with my sponsor. I talked with a sponsee. I talked with my daughter. Thank God for these people. I am told I am loved. I will choose to believe them.
And I will go to bed and pray that tomorrow I will be shown how best to live my day – in accordance with God’s will for me and that I be given the power to carry that out.
Naked I came from my mother’s womb, and naked shall I return; the Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord. — Job 1:21