I have noticed that I am now getting that “Sunday Night Feeling” on Sunday night as well as all throughout the week. When I was a kid, on Sunday night, I would start dreading, with terror, the thought of going back to school on Monday. I have had jobs where I have this feeling , but it has been decades since I have felt this way. I think 1989 was the last time. When I think about going to work this morning, my hands perspire and my stomach tenses up. This cannot be good.
I don’t know what the solution is, but I am actively seeking solutions. And I will say no more than that.
I will look for things that are good about the day. I will assure myself that I am not stupid or too old to have any value. I have not got the skill set that is necessary for this job, but I have other skills that have taken me 40 years in the workplace to hone. I have now learned to write code (something I never ever aspired to), but I do not do it at lightening speed. And frankly, I don’t do anything at lightening speed – again, something I do not aspire to.
Changing subject: I need to buy a book on Audible.com that will last through many hours of listening while I am on vacation. Can anyone recommend a super long book? I recently listened to War and Remembrance (45 hours), and Winds of War (56 hours). I am thinking maybe Shogun by James Clavell – but it is only 40 hours long. Anyone?
Thank you. And sorry for my endless complaining. And any prayers you could say for me would be greatly appreciated.