I’m driving to work this morning since I need to leave at 2:00 to go to a dentist’s appointment. I have a temporary crown that needs to be replaced with a real crown. I have not had the time to go in since I started my new job – in January! I decided I had to make the time and just do it.
I think I have turned a corner at work. And even if I haven’t, it won’t hurt me to think I have until it is proven otherwise. This has been one of the more challenging things I have gone through in the last 18 years of my life.
It was 18 years ago that I divorced my husband (after having been separated for a year). It was when I went back to the church. It was when I started working at the place that was so good to me for so long (17+ years). It was when my life calmed down. I used to say that turning 10 years sober was like being in the house in the Wizard of Oz, tumbling and turning in black and white, then suddenly landing in a sunshiny world of living color.
I had my first real success at work there. I often wondered if it was only there that I COULD be successful. I came to believe that was silly. And then when I changed jobs and felt like I lost my mind, I wondered again…. was it some magic that hospital had? But my new boss reassured me and her boss reassured me, and they said they knew I was dealing with the most difficult people who were making my job nearly impossible. I think I have invested enough time and work into making a working relationship with these impossible people. I know the problems can’t be over, but at least, for now, it is workable.
So, off into the world I go. And I have a cute new hand-knit scarf/shawl that I finished last night to wear today!
Make every effort to supplement your faith with virtue, and virtue with knowledge, and knowledge with self-control, and self-control with steadfastness, and steadfastness with godliness, and godliness with brotherly affection, and brotherly affection with love. — 2 Peter, 1:5-7