This rose is in my garden right now. It is called “love,” and has three roses in full bloom and several buds. I have never had so many roses on my little patch of earth!
My sponsor and her husband had said they might be coming to visit this weekend, so I cleaned, washed sheets and towels, and got things ready for house guests. They are not coming. I have a three day weekend ahead with little to nothing planned. That might be good. I will go out with my running club. I will go to my icon workshop. I will go to Mass. I will try to get to at least one hour of Eucharistic Adoration. I will go to confession on Saturday afternoon. I want to see Men in Black. I want to do an open water swim. That’s it.
I am working at home today. I had actually hoped that it would be an easy day, but it is not going to be. I actually ended up working for a portion of my vacation day yesterday. Crises, phone calls, and e-mails. I scheduled two phone conferences for today. I can do that from home – I have my work computer and big notebooks full of my files. Oh, my stomach hurts so bad!
Tonight I am getting a hair cut and color. I have been seeing this stylist for maybe 10 years, she will be surprised when I tell her to dye my hair my natural color because I don’t want to do this anymore. I no longer want to be a 60 year old woman with flashy highlighted blonde hair. My natural hair color is light brown, with natural highlights if I get out in the sun. I used to think it was “mousy,” but I am ready for mousy right now.
This seems to be my mantra right now. “I don’t want to do this anymore, I’m done.” I have to find new ways that are appropriate for who I am today. I am not who I was even a year ago. Life changes and evolves. We get “stuck” when we don’t want to acknowledge that and go with it.
“Rejoice always, pray constantly, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.” 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18