I took a day off work today so that I could have my little grandbaby over while her parents (my son and daughter-in-law) go fishing. Oh, this is medicine for my aching soul! My daughter called yesterday and asked if I could take a day off to watch the baby so her brother and sis-in-law could have some time to themselves. I immediately said “no.” Really, take a day off work? What? And then I thought about it and just decided to do it. My son was so happy and surprised when I called and asked him if baby could come over to visit all day today!
Sometimes I just really need to step off the merry-go-round and ask myself what’s important! Today it is having a beautiful day with my little baby, who is just learning to say “nana.”
Sometimes I still marvel at the fact that I am a grandmother who is trusted to care for a baby. I was not a trustworthy mother when my children were babies. I deeply regret that, and seriously, I don’t care what the book says about “not regret the past.” I am grateful I can learn from it and that I have that experience to share, but I DO regret hurting my children and you can never really make amends for that.
Oh, and speaking of things I probably wouldn’t say on the other blog – the other night as I sat with my sponsee reading the big book, she would turn red and break out in a sweat about every five minutes. She is waiting for some insurance to kick in before she gets the hormone replacement therapy that was prescribed to her! I told her she might want to consider paying cash out of pocket for it – and told her it would be worth it. My entire world changed when I started on estrogen when I needed it. I said at that time that estrogen was the most profound mind altering substance I ever took! I really think estrogen will help her more than 10,000 big books ever could.
And on the other hand, I was asked to help a woman who is a newly sober Christian and finds AA offensive. I find THAT offensive. If she is alcoholic and wants to get sober, she better get over it!
That’s it for my radical world view today.
I am grateful, grateful, grateful for a life so sweet and calm today.iframe>